Tuesday, February 1, 2011

past week update

Well it could have been a week not sure, I try to keep track of days but sometimes well just say we will wing it lol. So I have been trying to loose weight and My goal is to loose 15LBS by the end of Febuary, I have been working out three times a day when I can and if not three its deffinatly been two times. Life has been a bit stressful lately and iam trying so hard to clean out the drama cobwebs out of my life, and push forward and better myself and be a better wife, Freind, Daughter,sister....!!! Iam finally getting in life to where I want to be, and Iam looking at some classes to take as Iam winding down my day, I know iam a good photographer but I want to be a great one. There are allso some other classes I want to take but I havent totaly decided on them yet.Allso if things go well I may be getting a horse I know a lot of you are thinking where iam i going to keep it well of course not at my house but my parents house since, so my life will shortly consist of work, photography, Barn, School, and then what ever is left over for life in general. Me and Matt have been wishy washy about the holding off on the baby making thing i know some of you dont want to know about that but yeah we have decided to try and wait a little longer even though we both feel we are ready for that step in are life. We Really want to get a bigger house first though and with all of are other children(pets) Things would just be a little bit crowded in are small two bedroom rental house, so for now we are just going to have to suck it up and wait and when it finally happens it will be wonderful. And then hopefully by that point I will be able to work at home due to hopefully my photography expanding that much and beging to get where I would love for it to be. And even though I keep wondering at times what matts family thinks of all of are crazy decisons we just have to make the choices we make and hope they are the best for us and if not go from there and keep on going. we know they want the best for us and so do we obviously, I just wished sometimes they where not so judgmental you know but i guess thats there jobs.I just hope that one day they do see the side of me I want them to see because they havent so far and so things havent allways been great they have been more like akward which is no fun, but i apprcaite everything that they have done to help me and matt out in the beging of are journey in life togather, I guess I just want them to accept me finally and realize that iam not out to hurt or use matt like i know they have thought in the past. But anyways enough of that time to move forward with life and make it joyful and happy and not dwell on the past and things we cant change or take back. I have a goal that Matt wont have to work in the hell hole he works in one day due to my photography he has supported me through so much and when i havent had a job at times so I hope to return the favor one day soon.

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