1/27/2011 life and some decisions that need to be made

Ok so as far as it goes iam a little embarssed to say that i have gained 40lbs since i have been married not good :( !! So for that like I said in my last blog I have decided to loose some weight and what I thought would be a safe and healthy weight to loose was 55lbs which will put me down to 158lbs so I have a journey to go with that. Allso something else Iam wanting to do is go back to school and take a few classes in photography to further my skills and maybe a few other classes as well nothing like making the mind sharp, maybe a writting class or something along those lines since i love to write when my mind is in its own, lol. Allso by the end of the summer me and matt hope to be looking at a new house we orginaly had a goal of the end of spring but iam not sure its going to happen we are still striving for that but we will see. Then hopefully I will have a office and if i have enough clients comeing in through my photography I can work at home but intill then my focus is loseing some weight, taking some classes, getting a part time job and focus on looking for a new home with more space and washer dryer hook up cause let me tell you it sucks not having a washer and dryer in your house.Baby making has been put on hold to much stress right now and i dont want to be stressed to the max and pregnant just not a good combination so hopefully once we get a bigger house we can start working on that again because i cant wait to start are family, and as much as i would love to be pregnant right now it is obviousbly just not the right time in are life and we are still young, and if push comes to shove and we are unable we will just adopt so yeah lol i know I would rather have my own children but if it comes down to it then thats what we will do. Everyday God gives us choices to make its up to us to make the right ones and if we dont at first then we must learn from are mistakes and keep pushing forward.

The next 120 Days

Ok so the next 120 days I have decided to challange myself. Iam not sure how much I weigh at this moment I know its more than what I want to Wheigh and so fat girl has got to go.So for the next 120 days I have decided to drink nothing but water and juices, eat healther and less than what I do Take a carb blocker and some CLA 500 and some slimmetry and lets see where this goes. Also since i dont really own any exercise equipment and dont really have the money to join a gym at this moment I do have the Exercise on demand channel so in order to get my body where I want it in the next 120 days I have decided to do on the days i can fit them in three of the exercise shows and on the days i have to work or just have to much to acomplish one in the morning and one at night before bed.We will see how far this gets me posted bellow is the most recent photo of me and its not so hot so lets see what I look like in 120 Days!!!

2011 new start

So putting 2010 in the past, so excited to move on to the future new goals and dreams with actions being put into place to make things happen this year. I belive more than anything in this world this is the year to make things happen. From are business to are personal life its going to be an amazing year with are new goals to be in a bigger house hopefully by the end of spring, to having are business take a big leap forward so that we can help others the way God created us to do so, Allso hopefully starting are family (yaaay)!!! And putting all mistakes in the past and starting with a fresh slate, Getting a job but it wont be forever think God, and not allways looking for approval from everyone else before we make a big decision in are lives because we learn from are mistakes and if we make a few in the adult part of are lives so be it and not taking life so seriously because we where only given one life and so why not have fun in the process of becomeing a sucessful person and not let every little comment get to me the way it has in the past. I would love to think that I have grown up so much as an individual since i have meet Matthew he has completed me and are life is going to be amazing togather and nothing is going to stop that yes we may make a few mistakes along the way but who hasnt.Allso a personal goal for myself is to stop pre-judgeing everyone and let people in i know due to high school years i had put a wall up keeping people out but iam ready to let my guard down and give people a chance to finally see the real me and not dwell on the past and past freindships and relationships with people. Even though people have hurt me in the recent past old freinds and Family I cant let it eat at me forever and have to move on because there are bigger and greater things around the corner if i just hold my head up and let them happen. Another personal goal is to attemp iam not saying i will stick to it but iam going to try to loose 50 pounds before summer i know everyone allways says a simular goal to start out the new year but iam serious about it because i want to be in better shape for when me and Matt have children which will hopefully be soon. So in the mean time its time to get busy and put action in place of the words and live a better life and discover how great i could be if i just make some small adjustments to myself and attiude.